Monday, September 27, 2010

` Day seven: Four turn offs.

  • Guys who don`t have any plans of getting their lives anywhere.
  • Guys who don`t even show any effort.
  • Guys who are "bastos" and "papansin".
  • Guys who are more "maarte" than I am.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

` Day four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

  • "When will thesis get done already?"
  • "I lack sleep. I need sleeeeeep!"
  • "Why isn`t it easy to be happy? And okay? And contented?"
  • "I miss..."
  • "What happens to me after I graduate?"
  • "I`ll be with someone I deserve, someday."

Friday, September 24, 2010

` Day three: Eight ways to win your heart.

  • Don`t
    • you
    • ever
    • make
    • me
    • hope
    • for
    • nothing.

    Thursday, September 23, 2010

    ` Day two: Nine things about yourself.

    • My name, Kimberly, is the 57th most common girl name in the world. (I Google-d.) But I love it even though I think it`s too girly for me.
    • I am a geek without the glasses and the fashion statement to match the definition. I think I am a geek because I`d rather get lost in bulks of Reader`s Digest. I`d rather watch Adam, Jamie, Tory, Kari and Grant blow Buster`s ass. I`d rather be envious of Samantha Brown`s travels. I`d rather be all googly-eyes watching Leah, Hannah, Alexis, Collin, Aaden, and Joel. I`d rather confuse myself with Unsolved History, Air Crash Investigation, How It`s Made, MadLabs and Taboo. Rather than wonder who the hell Jelai, Victoria and Vera are.
    • I can listen to a song over and over again for hours and not get sick of it. Lately, I`ve been listening too much to Sam Tsui`s "I love the way you lie" Mashup and "Don`t want an ending". Whoever invented auto-replay is a genius!
    • I`m very particular with dates. I`m very good with dates, except when it`s school-related. Read: history. I also never forget to create monthly calendars on the back of my notebook and countdown on the days before special occasions. I just think days go faster that way. Haha. I can`t live without a watch. I can`t live without a calendar. I`m very date and time oriented.
    • I can watch a movie alone in a theater. And I find it weird that people find its weird of me.
    • I used to not want to have siblings but now that I`ve grown up and the complications of losing friends and failed relationships have caught up with me, I`ve been wishing that I should`ve had a sister that could be my instant best friend I could talk to about anything.
    • As much as I love talking, I love listening and knowing I`m a part of someone`s life. I feel happy when I get to know people more especially when they`re the type of people I never thought I would ever be friends with. I think it`s an accomplishment when I get to have my cousins talk about their love lives when they can`t share it to their own siblings. And I`m grateful when somebody says, "...because I know I could trust you."
    • I might be the most dramatic person you`ll ever meet. Srsly.
    • Cliché-ish as it may sound, for a pessimistic, I`m pretty optimistic.:P 

    Wednesday, September 22, 2010

    ` Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

    • I`m disappointed in you. And if only I had it in my hands to change everything, I would.
    • I`m sorry about Sunday. I know that it was not easy for you to understand why I did what I did, but I know you`re trying. That`s what you`re good at, tolerating my shit even if it hurts, even if it makes you cry. And believe me, I`m sorry for what I did. And if only I had another option of freeing my burdens, I`d choose that instead. I love you.
    • Thank you for Sunday. It wasn`t a good idea to be dragging you into those kind of stuff but I have to admit that it really was one of the best conversations I`ve had with you. I didn`t think that I would be able to tell you the things I planned to keep to myself because I never thought that anybody would understand, but you did without judging. I love you.
    • There`s so much I want to tell you but I don`t even know where to start. I told you that I wanted to talk to you but I don`t know how I`ll ever handle conversations with you anymore because things have changed.
    • I`m sorry. I don`t always expect things to turn out well but I just thought we`re way past this. I`m sad that just one wrong move, and just one wrong word, changed things between us. I don`t know how I`ll fix that. I don`t know if I have the ability to.
    • I`m surprised at how fast I`ve grown not to mind your presence. But I still think about you though, and the "what-we-were" and "what-we-would-have-been" but "wasn`t-anything-at-all". I`m doing well, really. I just wish, that since everything is over, don`t come back when I`ve learned to let go.
    • I miss you. I have a hard time admitting it to everyone, even to myself. But yeah. I really do. Even if I shouldn`t trust you anymore, even if you`ve let me down a thousand times. They don`t know a thing about us really. When I look at you, and you look at me, but we don`t have anything to say to each other anymore, I know we`re both thinking that it would`ve worked out well between us. But it`s just too late.
    • I love you. I always have. I always will.:(
    • You`ll be okay, soon. I know. Just hold on your faith and patience a little longer.
    • It seems like I`ve grown apart from you, but you know that you`d always be the one I turn to when all things start failing again. I`d do my best not to disappoint you with my wrong choices. Thank you for not giving up on me when everyone else does.

    Tuesday, September 21, 2010

    ` 10-day meme.

    Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
    Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
    Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
    Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
    Day Five: Six things you wish you`d never done.
    Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
    Day Seven: Four turn offs.
    Day Eight: Three turn ons.
    Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
    Day Ten: One confession.

    ` ♫ And it goes on and on and on, yeah.♫

    I`m falling in love with Sam Tsui.♥

    Sunday, September 19, 2010

    "What is best in having best friends?
    I know it when they hate me.
    I know the reasons why they hate me.
    And I guess no matter how they hide the hatred,
    I feel the sting, I feel the slaps, I feel the anger.
    But I`m so thankful that they have me,
    I feel my worth in them.
    After all, hatred does not only mean hating."

    - R.

    Wednesday, September 15, 2010

    "I know you.
    You always know what you want,
    and how you`re gonna get it.
    You just need someone to remind you
    of how much you`re dying to have it,
    before you actually go and try to fight for it."

    - K.